Saturday, February 11, 2012

Updates 1

It's day 3 of my truthful ordeal, and already, so much has happened. Yesterday, I slipped up on my truthfulness a total of 5 times. Fortunately, I only slipped up with sarcasm and nothing terrible. This was a massive wake up for me to be more careful when I speak for this coming week and potentially the weeks to come. Besides that, noting major to account for yesterday.

Today, however, my first true challenge occurred. While I was at work today, I came across my ex-girlfriend and her mom. I saw them before they saw me, and moved to avoid them. As I went outside to take in the carts, I tried to figure out why I wanted to avoid them so much. What I realized was this: I had no way of running. Usually, if something bothers me, I can just dodge the topic or hide behind a masked personality. This time, I would have to take all the questions and comments completely truthfully, and the responses would not be able to be held back like I usually do. The worst thing for me is watching people suffer, and this would be an opportunity where I would end up doing that, even though I desperately didn't want to do that.

That's what my mind came up with just before I headed inside. As I went back inside, I noticed that both of them had left. It was interesting to think that the fear I had was for an invisible challenge.

I made no slip ups today and managed to catch myself every time before I said something sarcastic. This challenge is becoming easier each day, and at the same time, more difficult. I miss being able to joke with people and be even slightly sarcastic. I will see this through to the end, though, and am looking forward to my special idea for the final day.

1 comment:

  1. The truth hurts, but you're making it work! Good Luck!
    -Kerri D.

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