Updates for 2/13/12

Nothing much new to report honestly (no pun intended). I've regressed a bit and made a few puns today at points where they were too good to pass up XD As I have nothing major to report, I'll take this opportunity to talk about the first thing I realized through this blog project...more than before.

I'm my harshest critic. Most people here this and respond with the "well duh", but few realize how extreme I mean this. I on a regular basis insult, twist, and torment myself to the point of it being nearly a problem (don't take this as a cry for help or an "oh you poor thing you're worth it blah blah blah" heard it before, it's not nessissary; that, and this is just an analysis). I don't like myself. So what? Most teens don't like themselves or wish they could be more this and that. Well, I find the smallest, most minute thing I've done wrong an essentially cut myself and salt the wound with it (metaphorically!).

As I've started to look at things through the lens of truth and lies, I've noticed that I'm overly critical to myself. Everyone had regrets, things that they've done they wish they could do over, but that doesn't mean we need to dwell on it. I've had to hold back on the harshest criticisms to myself. The unexpected thing was I found the source, but I'll keep that one for myself for now ;) If anyone actually cares (this is a class project after all, and many of you will see this blog as "a kid in my class writing about his problems for sympathy" and skim it away) I can go further into depth on this. But truthfully, I'd like to see one person who honestly, looking at themselves with no societal holds shaping their words, legitimately cares about the minor details and revelations of a high school senior. And frankly, I don't care. I don't need you to be me. (last disclaimer: I'm sorry to anyone this sounds overly callous or harsh to. I don't want to sound mocking or "holier than thou", but if it comes off that way...ya, sorry boss, tis the way I am)